Roll the Dice.

[Here's the another of many of this week's writings.]

Well I kinda think beefing is somewhat wack. I'm a man and they are women. I know I am an asshole, but I promise I mean well in all I do. I am just erratic in my doings sometimes, but then again so are you. I am only response for my actions, and due to these things often times I am punished and even lose a good friend/girlfriend. Most times, I try my best to not think about those good women... I promise before the Lord Himself that I try to leave 'em 'lone. Yes, I'm the King and I will continue to be, but Loren was a beautiful woman and too powerful. I did not like that at the time. Nina Armstrong, I always was confused about.. yet I miss my friend from Augusta. Stacey has always been my homegirl from Detroit, but her mouth is too big yet I'm wrong for what I say. Jennifer Porter I have known since 5th grade and wanted me to leave Marcia and not stand her ground, baby... I'm sorry not right now. I thought we were still cool, oh you got engaged? Is that what it is?? Miss Roberson, congratulations on graduating... I really wanna make it right, and Marcia... where do I begin??

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

I have said in the past that Love is Dead, but who killed it?? I cannot lie.. I held the knife most times, too. I used to see myself with these chicks as the modern day Sonny & Cher, Lucy & Desi, John & Jackie.... Martin & Coretta, Malcolm & Betty, Ozzie & Ruby... but as usual, I let my heart go too far. Ladies, this hatred against me gotta end somehow. I am not that bad of a man. I was finally able to hold a decent conversation with Spree after 2 1/2 years. I'm happy for that and she is getting married next month. I was able to make up with Terricha after a short beef, the same with Shakeela... and the same for the chick I was on probation for in 2000, Stacey Rochelle.. Sometimes when I go home, I still ride by Marcia's house.. and don't even ask why. Thank God for tinted windows. It's kinda hard to fully forget about those who truly made an immediate and powerful impact on your life. All of them were meaningful to me. To tell you the truth, I am doing a wonderful job of leaving you alone, but I cannot say that I don't think about you daily. The average for all of these women have been 1 1/2 to 2 years since I spoke to you. I just want to be cool witcha again. That's all it is. I miss your presence in my life. Was I that bad? We are not getting any younger. Everyday I meet new people to replace the place of that power you had... and I am failing miserably. I love you baby.... even if you have forgotten all about me and erased me totally out your life. I still hold your name up in my heart... all of you!!!

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"