50

50 months of pleasure, 50 weeks of pain
Sometimes I wish I was dead so she could (at least)
remember my name


We used to be full of bliss
like a bullseye with no miss sealed with a kiss
Every thought about our every wish
She's not the female to forget about and move on
only to continue loving through the producing of a newborn
Of course we're lovers, in comparison to Zeke & Serena
when we finaly love, she repeated, "I'll Never Leave ya!"
German American female loved to be beside me
All beautiful dates she had clean skins with presented feet
St. Valentine walked up thats Cupid
Everyone knows she she shot us with the love fluid
But she did it slick like "Bennifer" extremely sacred
Now even they have a whole bunch of drama
but my money only drawed closer to my foxxy mama
During practice, walked up to the female with the baddest smile
A flawless lady captured my love as far as 8 Mile
Reports in GH she was wonderful in the home
A dream lady better than Raven Symone
Brittany now needed a black man
soon she even got knocked up, she not on lock and later
become blocked by a huge rock

Strict mother drove up in a 1995 soon recognized as the crazy mane
I'm the same boy who made love to her in the window pane
Everyone found out in the Sentra
girl Marcia is always on my brain
future thoughts of using cherries and a candy cane
with honeymoon at the Leaning Tower after an official "intertwane"
months after months we matched never following the pack
Lay down suga remember what I'm bringing
I was patient for this dream lady like some dessert
now I'm going biserk
waking up with my heart taken
I have been stripped like some bacon
This foll jumped out of the 2000 flushes colored with a few ideas from M-Brook
I feel like pouring on gasoline in Atlanta
took a nice boy's girl to gain popularity with a team
Before then we were loving each other like Sour Cream
now I'm left with memories and a dream
This is our final session,
day after day going through a depression
For that nigga, I need a pistol
Free Unpredictable Mystikal
No help to get back my girl so now I gotta curl
My back in the bed prowling
Identical maze like 3000 Andre
She was my bay-bay now I'm in my Hay Day
lucky ass fool

He got my only valuable tool
She confused and I know why, She never meant bye bye
Spoken in German a mumble of long distance
conversation of future togetherness and communication in the same nation
holding the late night phone vertically with the time continuously we wasting
That same nigga still hypnotizing her, but she kinda wanna bounce
Long distance and previous heartbreak times in the disability mind announced
Lieselotti (sp?) wanted love makin' on this, love makin on that
unexpected heartbreak, heartbreak right back
challenge of patience to regain what's mind ain't happen like that
Through all discomfort and misery... she'll be back



{written 1/24/2004 @12:10am- 1:53am)

Powerlight IX

Lord, Our Father... I look to you for strength. I look to you for guidance. As much as I am continuously blessed by your Word, Satan still attempts to misguide me yet he loses regardless, because you are the overseer of the whole operation. Regardless, you are the greatest Lord, and you will see me through all obstacles. For this, I praise your name continuously. The whole world shall know your name, and know that you are Lord Jesus Christ. I shall not falter, I may be lost sometimes, but I look to you for everything. Thank you for where you are taking me and what you are giving me daily..

Supreme Ron Mexico: The Internet Radio Show

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....coming soon

Song of the Moment: Your Sweetness is my Weakness by Barry White

Barry cranks it up at the end, then walks off...

Powerlight VIII

I cannot say that I did not make mistakes. I cannot say that I did not have shortcomings. I just.. I just want to live THIS only life I have perfect. I cannot sleep at night knowing that I am not a perfect individual like Jesus Christ. As much love as I give out, I need to feel 1/10th of it return to feel wanted in this world. For a woman I adore, it pains me when it does not work out or maybe I am not as aggressive as I should be. I want to be there for her. I want to be successful and impactful on THIS land in THIS only life I live. I just want the world to be happy... just like me. Ye God!

The Last Latrice

originally titled "Latrice IV: 1500 Words [& Unreleased Latrice pt.3 - the original]." the final 2 Latrices are included here. Latrice IV and the original Latrice 3. I guess call this one Latrice: 3000 Words & Runnin'... the Unreleased Latrice is in italics

Success! That’s what I call her. Tonight is the night, and success is what I am thinking about. Success is a beautiful thing to have in your life. Diligence is her in blood cells. (scratch this)

I met Latrice in high school in Augusta, GA. I kinda told you that I liked you with my fragile ass and you said buy me a Pink CD and I will give you a pack of noodles and a damn hug. Somehow in the meantime in between time you gave your phone number and address off Morgan Road. I was scared so I never called or visited. In my head, she must be a damn fool if she think I will go by killa central. How would I do it and I had this German ass girlfriend, who to you she was jealous of? Well-well, I guess I don't know.. how far with Latrice I would go. So days and days went by and I never did show. I did bought the Pink CD, which by this time "There you Go" ruled MTV. Not too long thereafter I met Killa himself and my knees didn't buckle. I looked at him and he looked at me, he had blunt on his ear and a beer in his hand. I stay walking and walking. He smelled the air like he smell shit going on. Little did he know, I was plotting on stealing Latrice. December 2001, I stole a cell phone from a High School basketball game only to call Latrice. The phone rung and rung, but no one ever picked up. If I recalled, you gave the homeboy Rucker an estimate of your telegraph code. The next morning, I called again, but the cell phone was cut off. Pissed off, I kept the phone with your phone number in it. Didn't it.. get stolen at a week later? See ya later, I kept seeing Latrice. Funny 8 years later you would be pregnant. I am not around so the odds of a Latrice and Mexico union was stagnant. Shame you gave the lame nigga the good news, he put on his shoes. Back to 2003, I saw you cross the stage and I daydreamed of the signing in my senior book you did on the 1st page. Looking at it is if Jada Pinkett signature was there. Even back further, I saw you on 9/11 after seeing it on tube and the news didn't seem to move you. I thought damn she is strong. While you entertained Killa, I entertained your surroundings only to keep passing you in the hallways. Wait a minute, are you seeing what I am doing? I am recalling all the moments of Latrice. I left home without Latrice, and without her I was stronger as Lightning Grease. 2 hours away, I swear I saw your twins and triplets freshman and sophomore year. I grew balls and stepped to your sister. Not as real and smart-mouthed as Latrice.. they would laugh, you goofy as fuck, wanna fuck? Give me 3 Strong Island Ice Teas, 2 pillows, and 1 while ceiling cause Imma sike myself out as if this is the REAL Latrice. Next morning, where you from? I'm Augusta, and shawty you a busta... see you after lunchtime. I never call any of the fake Latrices back, cause all 5 of them went back and laid on their backs, and in 2006 they never came back. During this time, I still remembered Latrice and how much Latrice still remained in my heart. By this time, the German was in and out and much as another nigga was in and out, who went to the same high school as us that was a fake ass 50 Cent nigga. This probably was around the same time you dated the basketball nigga that was 3 years old than you. Happy, sure Latrice was. I asked Key Key about you and apparently you gave your key key away to him... to your heart that is. To suppress my anger at these headlines, I dated and kissed Fresh-women, Soph-whores, Junior Tricks, and Senior Hoes... that's how it goes. Around the same time as the basketball dude left your life, I had lost my 3 children and yours was still in progress cause emotionally Latrice was mentally process-seen this clown she did not dig, who will dig on top unsuccessfully. I still had a picture to refer to at nighttime, even the same night the German went to jail in March 2007 for fighting as I was fighting missing you.. people would now refer to Latrice as Reba McEntire since in 1977 she sang the same song you sung about not wanting to be a one night stand. Yeah Latrice, you goofy and more country than a peanut in Central Georgia in the hands of a blue wigged woman. Now circle around to present day life, I finally found the unfabriated Latrice. Simple communication and passion leads to immediate infatuation. Between us plenty of regrets, my subliminal abortions and your London, France from a wack night and short dance. So soon, we are about to begin in '10 from being OH "8" in '09. It's easy mathematics of how life led our alphabet aerobics. I piss Latrice off, I love Latrice on. Bring on the peace and luxury flowers to smell on your office desk. Only winners kept dinners on the table. This is not a fable, only a memory lapse about how I collapsed over Latrice. I text her hourly, I think of her rapidly, I sweat in my palms from her mental body, I love her habitually cause Latrice is all I can think about and... and-- my mind just went blank..


Good Morning! You're a Champion. Your voice makes me stronger. I am confident in Latrice, Lord I cannot get much wronger. How much longer do I have to wait for such this greatness? I am grateful for this opportunity for unity. Latrice, even if it was never to work or you played me this entire time... I would still feel better, go faster, go longer, and be stronger. I will wait even longer. I been waiting on you since 2002.. yup, thats how long I been on ya! Latrice, you are my Jackie Kennedy, my Marilyn Monroe, my Janet Jackson, and my Beyonce.. I mean, future fiance. I want to look in your eyes, point your head to the skies, and make you feel niiiice. Thank you Love, I mean thank you Latrice. I cherish your goodness in this world. I been loving you since the TV show Dynasty in the 1980s. It's been too long. Let's go faster, feel better, and gooo stronger!!! Damn shame, I never told ya. Everyone, everytime I think of Latrice.. I wonder when will I get to hold her?! I need you right now. I need you right now. Latrice, I need you right now. Do you know how long I been on ya?? Since Mighty Morphin Power Rangers! Since Get Rich or Die Tryin. Since Michael Vick was drafted by Atlanta. Damn shame, I need Latrice. Are you sure I have never told ya??? Since Saturday Morning Cartoons on CBS at the corner CVS. Latrice, look to tomorrow because on your hand you will have VVS. Yes, baby you're blessed. Faster, Better, Stronger.


Good Morning! You're a Champion. Yes you are! I wonder if you know.. what I mean.. when I tell you how much you mean to me. I wonder if you know.. what I mean.. that you will be my dream come true. I been waiting on Latrice since 2001... every night you are in my sights. I said I would try my best to never wrong ya.. and I meant it. I just wonder if you really know... when I mean.. (deep breath here)

..you would be my dream come true. Every day I listen about your baby daddy harassing you.. I'm just asking you.. (clears throat) can I break his fuckin fingers?? I want to protect ya.. I mean it.. but I just really wonder if you really know.. what I mean.. well I guess on to the next one though cause I'm about to go nonstop on this next point.. no period, no comma, just one for you and your mama so Imma run on to the next the one follow me cause you don't have to front on me if you down for me then we are headed to the stars I mean what I say when I say I like you and care about you and I believe if you say the same about me so what you have a newborn we about to be the royal family like Redd Foxx in 1992 and yes I mean this when I say it and we will fight and I am already looking forward to our first argument cause I need to detect how much you are really in this thang before the first 6 months is over as a matter of fact I might use the next 40 words to tell you how crazy this connection really is my first memory of you was the around the first 3 weeks of school in the 11th grade 4 days before Beyonce's 20th birthday with the finger waves and long nails and 2 fists full of gold rings and you were one the baddest females in the school I fell for you then 8 years later 3 days after Beyonce 28th birthday we fell for each other so I guess 3 years from now you will be my finance on Beyonce birthday which in the next 20 words I will tell you what you're not you not mean as Hurricane Katrina you Da Baddest Bitch as Trina 9 years before Katrina but cleaner than both we are not Dream and Christina there will be no Love and Hate just a little Bounce Rock Roller Skate on a date next weekend where you probably will refer UNDER but you want to be bent OVER and this part is over...

(deep breath here)
La-La-La-La-Latriccceee..... don't call the police... wait until I get my money right. As your voice plays in my head right now, it makes me feel very drunk and psychedelic. Woodstock 1969. There is too much bullshit required to mess with a mean ass Latrice. That's why I love it. Just mean. Drunk, Mother, School Hot Girl. In a room with Janis Joplin, Gil Scott-Heron, and John Lennon. Your voice is talking to the needle as I thump your lovin to pump through my veins. I need a hit. I need a hit.

"..you love me, daddy. you cannot run from me. you better not fall asleep on me. i am the best thing runnin. 100 miles and runnin with NWA in 1992. that's it, put me up to your arm. ingest my love drug. put the flame under the spoon and boil me up. i am hot. i am on fire. i am latrice. the love drug. we got a love thing. we are inseparable. my rapid fire that i spit through your spirit, you cannot escape. medusa. you can call me that, too. i am like the drunken hot girl. daddy, let yourself goooooo. stimulate your miiiiiinnnnnd. i am right here. ahhhhhhhh!!!! i am the best thing runnin. i am the best thing going. there you go. squeeze me. squeeze me. let me go. let me poke out of your veins. yes. yes. YES. YES. grab yourself there. fall over. hahaha! i control your emotions, babe. i am the drug and hot girl. the guitar weeps. dadddyyyy!!! daddddyyyy!!! are you there babbbeee?? the look of love isssss in your eeyyyyeeees. don't gooooo! don't gooooo!! the look of loooooveee...."

It's never too soon to talk about the well wishes, Latrice.
Diamonds are Forever. They are all you need to keep you loving me. Tiffany's!! They are shiny. They will show thee how much I love thee. Diamonds are Forever!!
Well Christmas is coming, and I think diamonds are in order. No, I don't think I am moving too fast, but I am not proposing either. I like nice things. Smile. I don't do it for the buying of your love. I am doing it, because in society, we are on our way. Show the world how much you mean to me, and I am not afraid. You gotta do something to keep your girl next to you. Diamonds are Forever. Diamonds.. are Forever. I cannot say I have not thought about it. I am not ashamed to say it. If you love someone, then you have to show them. Dinner, flowers.. thats the norm. Victoria's Secret. That's automatic. If you are keeping her smiling and she is supporting you without any arguments, then ... Forever!!!!! Diamonds are Forever. One more thing, as long as I have longed for a wonderful woman, then I will show her how long I been waiting on her.. Diamonds are Forever. We Major! We the Best. We Global. We Global, mama!!!

After my first conversation with Latrice.. shet, I felt better than some head on a Sunday afternoon. Yes, you guess it.. better than a girl who says yes too soon. I felt better than Muhammad Ali when he defeated the mighty Sonny Liston. I felt better than Cool Whip on a Strawberry Shortcake. I felt better than Ray J behind Kim Kardashian. I felt better than Joe Wilson when SHE shouted "You Lie!" at President Obama. I am the Homer Simpson with a 2 cans of Duff beer. I am the NFL player with a can of Campbell's Cream Corn Soup. I am the can of paint that PETA pours on someone wearing fur at an award show. I am Bobby Brown in 1990 after singing Don't be Cruel. I am Kanye West the night he dissed Taylor Swift. I am... feeling great, feeling good, feeling great.. all because of you. Latrice, I wanna go hiking with you, because I'm can scream off the mountain... YES I AM THE SHIT AGAIN!!! I cannot believe I got Latrice, babbbyyy!!!!! I am glad this is not a rodeo, though cause I don't have to worry about falling off you. You throw your water down on Pussy Galore and I fall to the floor, my my my... will still stay up! stay up! stay up! I will eat you as long as I have to .. and I will stay up! stay up! stay up! Even as your nipples begat me through your blouse, I'm aroused as I stay up! stay up! stay up! All I need is 2 shots, some candy, and a damn hug and for your pleasure, I will stand up! stand up! stand up! in it cause it will stay up! stay up! stay up! All night.. All day.. loving you.. I will do it to you. stay up! stay up!


Okay Latrice, right now I am running outta breath like I am drowning and my fingers are hurting as if I just finished watching a Vanessa del Rio 1982 VHS tape. I got less than 500 words left to tell you how much I dig you. You’re magnificent. You’re wonderful. You ARE beautiful. Whoever did not see it and take advantage before me can eat a dick. Damn shame, a goddess is out here floating freely. As we speak, I am listening to you snore on the phone, yes I am 2600 words in and sticking a middle finger at everyone opposing before, during, and after, because this is my time to propose to you. We are about to be a best thing running, and I intend on travelling with you next year and making you laugh many moons to come. I am glad for this opportunity. Latrice, I don’t need a Robocop. You are the baddest girl I have ever seen. Weekly we agree to disagree, and its okaaay… okay okay?? You don’t have to be so mean. You don’t have to be so serious. You don’t have to be so edgy. You don’t have to be so afraid of this new thang. Well.. stay on your guard for other decepticons, so then again… I need Latrice to be my Robocop. Keep walking like a Robocop. Tonight, I just want you to say you will. Between us, there will be no more heartbreaks. Don’t be so paranoid. Baby, you don’t have to worry about it. Baby daddy? You worried about the wrong thing, the wrong things. I am here now. Look at me Latrice, tell me do you think this will last? You don’t have to live this life alone. I am qualified to make you cum through the phone while you’re alone. Yes, lets not worry about what is not in our control, but between us, we are in control. We will grow in the Lord. We will pray and praise together. Now you’re worried about the wrong thing, the wrong things. When I make you displeased with me, Latrice, don’t be so heartless. Actually, I am so full of heart, you can keep being heartless until you cool off and there will be enough heart left to drink between us. I look at the moon at night, and am glad for your presence. Your presence, these moments.. I am too grateful for. Whatever happens, never hate me. Say you will.. never hate me. I see your Love is Locked down, but I am purchasing a key to unlock it, slowly. Yes, yes, yes! Even through the High School “wire,” you just have been a goddess to me, so you’re mine now. I will find an evil laugh and use it around your friends. I am just happy like Tom Cruise on Oprah’s couch. This is punch drunk love, go get my Vodka, trick. 3000 Words and Latrice. The high school crush wait is over.. I’m gone and done..

Song of the Moment: Kardinal Offishall featuring Akon- Dangerous

D.R.E.A.M [drugs rule everything around me]

In the days and times of Kurt Kobain
Nirvana, Augusta, GA was the thing
They turned on some Rick James
followed by some Drunk Games while watching airplanes
Young Buck, go pour some Coke and Golden Grain
Thanks mane, I was only 7 sittin' next to a tub of Sulfur 8
It's pretty late and the adults are leaning on the gates
Go get a dinner plate but in the bathroom
A man arm is tied up with blue lips from 'shrooms
House Party on TV, House Party in front of me
Damn food, I like the sights
Under the city lights
everyone is high as a kite
Marvin Gaye is on display in his hayday
Payday wrapper on the ground from the sound
of a man with flour under his nose delivering blows
while the Michelob dude hits the ground
All in one night, age 7, I was introduced to heaven
or Augusta's own Studio 57
Plenty of toots, Plenty of tools
Plenty of teets, Plenty of feets
So young seeing so much, I tried to touch
but Motif with pimples on his arms
Hit my hand with my brush
next thing I see, my 4th grade crush


Funny, Drugs Rule Everything Around Me


5th grade, introduced to Marlboro
on the railroad by a white boy who also had blow
Around the same, only my girlfriend had teets for show
Dare to be Different? Just say no??
1721 days later, I'm at another House Party
Lines and Lines of Coke in the kitchen
Motif is back again with a shoe string around his arm
Fire Alarm, its too much smoke in this place
Everyone got a taste in my face
I was outta place but didn't know it was a disgrace
So much hash in haste, I even saw the old man stiff paste
Did I have a bad mother??
This was for me to discover
That Drugs rules everything around me
But don't play me, what's the flour on the back of the toilet??
Hold it, It's cocaine
Want some kid??
Some called it Rick James
but I walked away cause I wanted to play "hop on a girl" game
3am, men walking around lookin like zombies
It's Thriller Night in the hood
Another House Party and up to no good
Lil Kid grab that heroin for me
Should I?
Yes you should.


Funny, Drugs Rule Everything Around Me


From the Golden Grain to Cocaine
Black to White to Puerto Ri-cane
It's time to leave my mama house
Look down, its a mouse
Look up, its the love drug
X to get you some XXX
after drinking on some XX
Swallow the pill, then she will swallow me
No pee, No teeth
Drunk and hypnotized by her disguise
but I need your thighs to look to the skies
while listening to Plies as she let out a loud sighs
Eyes wide open from the poking
to come back to normal to know that I did know her name
We was floating on extacy... extacy...
They got me. Drugs are all around me.
Free Love Movement
They had little paper and little weed
but today, corporates and ghettos need weed to succeed
Drugs and Humans have a love thing
I seen in between the same thing while flying
but I'm in my twenties I, myself, have a lot of drinking to bring
Up to it, Down to it
I do it cause I'm used to it
I'm in it to win it
There is still a lot drunk sex to do
no drugs for me
There is still a lot of nights skeet through
everyone screw, everyone is through
Bodies everywhere, Lives to spare
Young living like you don't care
Been around drugs since I was puberty
They gave me the liberty to deliver me
I miss the drug men, they showed me the way of sin
I saw the shoot in the arm, in the nose
but girls showed me between the chin and the nose is where it goes
Blow your nose and it bleeds
Bend on their knees
Forgive them for these devilish deeds
I mean, activities
So young, they snorted their lives away
Forget the day of being gay
They play in the hay with a bottle of Seagrams
I was a little pilgram
Since 2004, my eyes relapse
Emory, Georgia Tech, Spelman, Morehouse...
My friends, People my age... deja vu, perhaps??

Joke of the Moment III by Redd Foxx

What's the definition of "indescent" ?
-When its IN long and its IN hard and its IN deep, then its indescent.